SOUNDNESS 

Dawn of sound

Of word, of wisdom 

Of light and dark. 

One could call this, 

The mask of acuity. 

In what tongue shall the being speak,

What tongue will be received. . 

To another, wisdom often sounds ridiculous. Indeed.

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Consciousness is trying to say something.

It appears the voice though they all carry different tones. Are all saying the same thing .. 

if it resonates then this is simply a beautiful thing. 

All is resonance. All is sound. 

In reality It offers nothing new to the perfection of life. Just some ideas, from another tongue.

The eternal as beauty. 

The eternal is beauty. When one is touching deep beauty in life, one can be said to be touching the eternal. There are many forms of beauty. And in many ways it is something completely tangible for all beings, on whatever level. On some level we are all seeking beauty, we all wish to feel good, to be surrounded by things we love. On whatever level. On every level. Beauty. Things of beauty, is a thing we all touch. The essence of life itself. If life put us all here perfectly as we are, then it is the best thing to just swim in the delicacy of life’s gift. And trust that if there is something one needs to see, they will see it. If there is something to be heard they will hear it. If there is something to be known they will know it. The individual does not need to do much in order to feel life, but let go, and allow life to pass through it. Then it is that the beauty of life reveals itself. One need not do much for this. Just to be in life, is enough. 

The real eternal is the deepest beauty, 

Perfection: 

The deepest point of the light is seeing the perfection of life as it is. There is no perfecting. There is just the present. 

All perfecting ceases. 

When one seeks perfection one has misunderstood the message. For nothing manifested is perfect. As nothing manifested comes close to the perfection that is. Beneath it all. So to be imperfect is to be in truth. To be as we are. In its totality. In all its faults. But to be the transparent halo above the dark and light, to swim over the rough stones as a river glides past its boulders. It is to be proximate observer. It is to feel, why not. Why should we not feel? But it is also to be past the feeling, and to be watching, as we are watched. As we are all being watched. And to allow life to flow. As the breath flows through us all. 

The self. 

There is a centre point. But with the pattern of life, one can move away and return again. The road is not linear. Not singular. The road to the one, to the many. The self can be continually refound in the present, and the present is always different. This is what the Buddhists are saying when they talk about the impermanent and interdependent state of existence. There is no inherent singular state of self. As the self is just presence itself. indeed this goes beyond the nature and structure of the soul. yes presence goes beyond human design! the true self is even beyond the soul. Both moving and completely still at the same time. On top of this there could be said to be a unique layer, that is the filter, the skin. And on top of this many more layers, for some, but the more layers, are the more conditioned, and it might be said the further one comes away from the true self. The more the ‘me’ is different in everyone . . Ha. I laugh at the incommunicable paradox. 

Yes it cannot be said. Only understood. Only realised. That the past is an old story. The teachings of history are dead. They are a fiction. 

The eye 

Symbolically, the iris could be said to be the shades colours and tones of the experience of life, it is the experience. The pupil is the awareness. The point. The intention. The direction. The tip. Unmoving.

Life 

I sit around lake in Pokhara. It is dream. Of course, life is the dream. The morning is busy though it is a Saturday. It feels that way. It is my perception. It comes, so I write; that we are just wild and faulty interpreters of this life. Placed in a vastness, of an incomprehensible scale. 

Even in our ways of touching the deepest part of this life, each teething is unique to our own self hood. Our lonesome walks into the world, where all ties are cut. And to our best we find, and try to navigate our way, navigate a path, where in reality there is no path. No path to follow. Beyond the conditions and restraints, the abyss, becomes something that leaves all of life, up to interpretation and suggestion. Though in that place, this is not so much of problem. 

In the last few weeks it came, that to be in a place of question, and uncertainty about life, is perhaps point. This openness brings with it a kind of deeply rooted satisfaction. As if life wants you to know nothing about it. Not so much. And in this it seems the veils of light fall upon the being.  To know too much is to ruin the fun. One becomes rigid, too adult. The play ends. And the point is the play. At least for this time. There is some pretending so we have to pretend. We have to live. We have to act. Revel in the lightness of the stage, even though it is all kind of made up. For knowing gives a sense of finality, and that seems to me to be the antithesis of truth. Though of course it’s nice to know things. We humans love to know very many things. Our knowledge, our own human consciousness is such a limited form of understanding. On all levels, it fails. 

I read someone recently critiquing a spiritual teacher for being contradictory. It made me laugh. I’m not sure any truth, going beneath the surface, can be anything but contradictory, it would be very hard. It is very hard. Words fail again and again, perhaps it is boring to keep repeating, even to my own ears, but they fail again and again. 

Consciousness holds the deepest paradox. It’s because it is neutral and all encompassing. It holds all sides, all opinions, all feelings, all opposites under its umbrella. All is an okay from life. Do what you will. It is rather self forgiving. But it sees everything. 

In the life, there are many levels . . It appears. . Just when one thinks that perhaps the end has approached, life unravels new tasks, new lessons, new characters, new mirrors. Life reveals, it’s decadent tones, its shades and hues. It is an ever deepening abyss, with many sides of many coins. Though I feel one is able to choose the lessons, choose the level of comprehension, and the lighter they become the lighter the life becomes. The more simple. 

••• 

The biggest lessons are in the smallest matters. Consciousness is a  finely tuned fork. The present extrapolates the many million perspectives.

••• 

I listened recently to a physicist on Joe Rogan’s podcast. He speaks about, and to my eyes seems to channel, his words. But he has constructed in the language of physics a model of the life. He says, that the only way to lose, is to not learn. It is Brilliant. It is so profound. Speaks to me of the lack of finality. There is no end point. There are no ah ha moments, or indeed there are many continuous ah ha moments but it does not end. The problem with many schools of spiritual thought is that still, with the limitations of human consciousness and the systems of hierarchy, we have pre-supposed that an external structural system holds the key to an answer, an ending, a fix for a non-existent problem. Oh how the ego loves a hierarchy. No indeed, this is a makeshift falsity. And it is why deviation from such schools are necessary in order to truly enter the presence of your own existence. The word is dead. The past is dead. Life is now. And life is you.

 If evolution is the process of consciousness moving forward, and we are the vessels carrying it, then I see that this is exactly the point. It is both movement forward and on a deeper level, not moving at all. But I feel it is good to move away from the stories of history. For at some point it starts to inhibit the process. Now I feel more clearly that consciousness evolves. We are like batches of cookies in an oven, every generation more soft and lightly brown than the last. I saw this in my own family. I was observing how wide the eyes were, and to see my four year old brother watch my every move with such articulation. It evolves. It gets better. It gets deeper. It gets more beautiful. It is in the process of perfecting, always. 

Yes the point of life is the process of it. Continual remembering, returning to its essence. The Openness to its bends and turns.  life is here to be lived. And indeed to seek the source and the profundity of truth, is a beautiful aspect, but at a time it can also be an obstacle, and make an obsession and a possession out of a person, seeking, seeking to ‘know’ or to pummel the child into another kind of perfection. To take the essence of life and to shut it away in a cave - perhaps also not the point of this limited material existence we have here. But importantly it is choice, that determines the outcome, true choice. The point is the distance we can hold ourself from the child, the child will always be a child, we cannot escape feeling, we cannot escape the limitations of the skin so long as we are here. 

It is what one chooses. Ultimately what anyone chooses is fine. But perhaps it is funny, and life would see it is funny that while being here we find a way just to escape it.

Consciousness is like a child. When we are stripped of mind, and rigidity. It appears we are really just here to play, to allow consciousness to extrapolate the unique experience we have here of being human. And we are all unique. So it appears to me that consciousness chose to explore itself in many different forms. Hence why the truth of one is not the truth of another. Though again on a deeper level, what sits at the basic structure of all of it, that is to say the basic code, is the same. And on top of this basic code; consciousness itself, we all have a slightly more unique one, one could call this the self or the soul. The mapping of astrology links to this code. The physicist discusses it in this way also. That we are essentially coded, as if on a computer game. 

I suppose alignment comes when we can align our own separate code (thought, word and deed), to the more universal code. Then one can enjoy the lightness of the game. Because we understand that the world is not solely about us, in the sense of the ‘I’ and yet it is about the evolution of matter to a meeting point with what lays beneath the matter. And so life becomes completely about accessing the beauty that lies beneath our masks, our minds, that block and blind the access to the stage light; the added use of perception, which is the alignment of one’s sight to the creator’s. What I have understood is that while neutral and distant to our individual existences, the creator, or throbbing paradoxical presence, quite enjoys its method of creation! Enjoys its manifestation in the material. So if we can meet it there, we enjoy it from this place too. Though I feel our manifested world is a failed experiment that has somewhat moulded in the test tube. A happy accident perhaps. But something so inherently profound and beautiful. The chances of this existence are so low, that we really should not exist. How is it that we came into existence, with the ability to enjoy its creation as much and to the ability of the creator. It is the deepest part of our faculty as humans. It is the deepest part of our beauty. When we can see beyond. See beyond the I, see beyond the intellect. And understand what it is trying to make us see. 

It’s very nice actually. You change the way you see and suddenly the whole world smiles at you. The whole world. 

Isn’t it funny. There is nothing to realise. But this very realisation is the open ended answer to every question. Life can then flow, Without our obstruction to its very nature. 

We are the creators of this existence. I see it as a good thing to look deeply within, see who you are first. Then see what you want, see who you want to be in this life, then become this. Be inspired by the foliage of life, that is its very essence. We are here to play. To be inspired. 

The game 

Life is the funniest game. 

Sometime we roll a series of sixes. At other times we roll two’s. 

One might ask, How is it we can embrace the sixes and the two’s as the same? 

•••

Life is a game where there are no rights and wrongs no do’s or don’ts just human beings navigating their own truth in an emerging abyss that our consciousness is actually too limited to understand. It is really quite funny. How fun the game when we can see it as one. How many levels and layers. It seems that each level, each layer, provides different teaching. Different sets of lessons. And I suppose past the point of conditioning, or what people call these days ‘trauma’, the channels, and the codes become a little lighter; a little more fun to play with. The thing that is not you. And we are taken to the level in which we need to be taught. Sometimes it feels as if it is in reversal. But in fact the game does not work like that. The game is always moving forward. I feel it is good to come to understand where you find your innermost teachings. Some lessons may not be fitted to your path. We all find satisfaction in different lessons. Perhaps one decides to be taught continually by life’s harder earthly threshold. The other may prefer more simple, lessons, that dance more delicately on the surface. In part we have choice, in the most we have no choice, life will provide us with what it is that the particular self or soul may need to encounter. 

I have thought at one time that we come out in batches. That’s why people have been able to place us within the stars and within the science of astrology. because it’s as if with evolution, and it’s own desire to evolve, god churns us out like cookies in an oven, every batch a little better than the last. Ha ha. I have felt that consciousness is like a child, wanting to explore itself in the matter. Why is it, it would want to have the same experience in each lbody. It is here literally to have an experience of a lifetime. The uniqueness of our fingerprint, is the uniqueness of how it is this web of consciousness filters through our very skins. 

It is not to say that having awareness of the game removes all pain, of course we have matter, and the point, it might be said, of life is not to not experience any of it. It is to experience all of it. In its beauty. Perhaps we can even see pain in its presence, in its beauty. As pain is very present. To really live in the world. In the game. One cannot avoid pain, one cannot even avoid suffering. These ideas, I have been told, are fantastical. There is not one eternal state of bliss, or one eternal state of peace. But in this knowledge one can rest more peacefully in the idea that all of it is constantly changeable. And over time we become more and more accepting of this. But one can change the way in which one perceives of its own misgivings. One can perceive in the way life itself might perceive. With the eyes of beauty. 

••• 

So to answer - 

By knowing you are neither. Merely it is the play. 

True tantra 

So I come to write this, with a kind of sense of impellment, not particularly because I am that interested in tantric theory, or in expelling a perspective, but because there is much misunderstanding, when it comes to how people interpret tantra and the reality of what it is. It is here in this current being that I feel called to harmonise the creases in certain logics around truth. That is what sits in this current existence. 

I thank my friend, since it is these discussions and interactions, that has brought about discernment and some clarity around spiritual truth, what it is and what it isn’t. 

The true tantric union, is the union within, not without, most texts emphasise this point. Tantra is about bringing the dualities back to the point of original unity. it is the total purification of the individual, to a point where one realises the essence of the self beyond all form. The union is of the masculine and the feminine, known as shiva (pure consciousness) and Shakti (energy) central principles in authentic tantra. but let us also not confine ourselves to this structure, what this word says, and how it is experienced is an entire galaxy away! Tantra is yoga, yoga is the absolute, the truth is one, the paths are many. Tantra is explained as the inner marriage of polarities within the body. It is the same in yoga. Classic tantric texts are very clear, without jnana (true knowing) and bhava (right attitude) other engagements are just energetic and sensual play. Tantra becomes in one, and then can become in two only if both are unionised within. It is 

Essentially Where realisation meets realisation. Where source meets source, or you could say true emptiness meets true emptiness. 

Before that inner realisation, it is energetic play, but without that inner union, the specificity of realisation of the absolute and the connection to true source it is just a play of vital power.

anything that comes after that true union can be considered tantric. But one may not need to name it either. 

The word tantra comes from the Sanskrit root ‘tan’, which means to expand, to stretch, to weave. But expansion can only happen when one is void, empty, abyss enough to expand into its presence. 

Tantra is ‘that by which knowledge expands and liberation is attained’. And for knowledge to expand, the knowledge must first be truly comprehended. 

For many it has become another intricate science, that separates with its high words and forms and techniques - yet as always the reality is more simple. though indeed needs true comprehension. the paradoxes continue.

So, true tantra, classically and in its simplicity, is where realisation of the supreme reality occurs. Where masculine and feminine meet within. The partner then is not so much needed. but if one encounters another meeting of the soul in its clarity, then this is how the true self meets itself, as life meets itself in our many forms. It is here, that tantra occurs naturally, not through any method but where clarity meets the clarity of another soul. It is a specific union, where true self meets another true self in form.

So, what does this clarity mean, what does this inner clarity look like? what do they all say when they say ‘know thyself’. It means one is awake, one is awake to the goings on of their inner being. It does not necessarily mean perfection in its bodily form, but that all perfection and imperfection is seen. It is awareness. The absolute is awareness. So it is the clarity in which someone knows themselves within the body, in their feeling, knows themself beyond the matterings and projections of another. Has seen something so beyond themselves. It is in a very simple way actually. Knowing yourself. What would you like to eat, do you like to drink chai? How does the body feel? When the body is in synchronisation ‘knowing’ of oneself is very simple much like this. It is very human. It is not any ideas. The ideas are very crowded. But it is awareness. It is clarity. It is beyond the mind. It is something that will not and cannot be translated fully in words, what in actuality might be felt here. This presence is felt, however, do not trust the words, trust the felt presence. Trust the silence. Tantra is felt in silence. Without positing too much suggestion, One might and indeed can experience more tantra in silence with another than in its physical engagement. That is the true power of source. It is clarity of the realised soul seeing and meeting. nothing more. But nothing less either. 

Yes It appears I am hierarchical here, I am as I say, only for clarity and for the discernment of real truth. If one is interested in the half, that is absolutely fine to remain interested in the half, in one’s own human truth, one’s own self made path, it is equally valid as all is relative. but! it is not the whole. Self is the whole, tantra is the whole. So if one claims to be interested in ‘truth’, in the absolute, beyond their own readings and projections, they must be interested in the whole.

••• 

Osho, too, said something similar:

“Tantra is not indulgence. It is total awareness. Without awareness you have only sex, not Tantra.”

••• 

And now to be specific, beyond the mind is also a very particular event that you do not miss. Many speak of no mind, or may hear of these terms and yet it is very easy to copy and perceive that you know what this means. when one claims knowledge it does not know, it is just ignorance. Dear beings, when you know you know. And when you know you come running to the nearest person, exclaiming ‘what have I just seen’, a truth greater than myself that makes I, absolutely nothing. The eyes, wide, the eyes so awake with emptiness, with utter WHATNESS! And in their empty eyes you will see, not in eyes crowded with gripping falsity and projection.  These are eyes Where all others stand greater and taller than you. Where all beings become gods, since we are the expressions of THAT, that same thing within us all, that thing so beyond you! Or perhaps you do not speak for a very long time since within there is so much starlight and grace, you do not need to utter a word. And so you watch. You cannot trick yourself into knowing or not knowing. The absolute is not something you can miss. its expression can be seen in another easily. Though it is very subtle, many miss it, unless another in this same form expresses the same reality. Or one is receptive enough to receive what true openness, and absence of anything but that is. 

I speak here only to people interested in realisation, or for those on these so-called ‘paths of truth’ a term i now reject for the deceptive nature of its conclusion. the path is life. ditch the spiritual language and self-indulgence - i’ve said this a lot now - but really be human. be really human and nothing else. then you will be free la la. if one is not interested in absolutes, then the path is laid before already, enjoy the relative path! enjoy! life is doing its work. no work needed. If realisation of this inherent truth, that we are all existing in anyway, comes to you then it was meant to come, the body-mind dissolves to a point - and if it doesn’t it does not. But I speak to some who slightly deceive themselves into thinking they know of something in which they do not know or claim to know the inner workings of life’s actual incomprehensibility. Again it is just the mind clinging, to certainty, to framework, to something to confine reality and others into. But the spiritual indeed likes to morally confine, others to a rubric they have found for themselves and can project onto others as a play of knowing and power - yes nothing new here, this is and was religion. We’re all human, yes to be forgiven, but to be avoided also. avoid this misinterpretation. Be humble dear beings, only in humility, where all other beings become your teachers do you even come to the brink of understanding the totality of emptiness. Where you cannot stand between yourself and another because you are the same, as the fabric of life is the same within us all. 

So returning to the word ‘tantra’, which again, is just a word. I am not here to challenge those who enjoy the play of life, merely to clarify what in some cases seems confused and misinterpreted. When we speak of these terms, when we speak of knowledge, when we speak of divinity and truth, clarity is essential. For many stand in the centre of a half-truth, from a place of mind perceiving of themselves to be something they are not, knowing things they do not. the spiritual world has many masks. ‘many dark bodies close to the sun’. it’s all paradoxical anyhow, since the knowledge of the great knower is the absence of any knowing whatsoever. h ha!

So with all things. I write. Then I laugh. For we can sit and speak about tantra, or pretend to be within tantra, but the reality is true presence lies beyond all these words written, and life also lays beyond all these words written. If one is in presence one need not bother to know anything but that. throw away the books, throw away these other schools of thought. And again to clarify, what we mean by true presence; it is the totality of awareness, it is the realisation, the union within, nothing else. It is not perfection, but it is knowing the truth of what and why, in every moment. This is Something you cannot miss. Presence is grace, is god. It is existing always and within, but it is specific it is beyond doubt, and beyond the word. 

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Many methods - all go to the same point of presence. It is the same truth, that need not be argued with. Ignore those that cling to agreements and disagreements of perspectives. It’s just the mind asserting its own perspective on someone else’s truth. A mind that has not seen, and does not know. Again I say it is worse than ignorance for at least ignorance does not claim to know. 

‘In forgetting is the remembrance. In dissolving you become crystallised’. 

Aloneness is the self. Osho writes, and I love this, ‘In fact deep love only reveals your pure aloneness to you’. (Ecstasy: the language of existence) Aloneness is absolute. 

Relax and rest easy in the abyss of all that is;)

lastly i add, the realisation is nothing but the deepest realisation of one’s own humanity! but it is the deepest beauty, to realise just that. Remain clear, remain human, remain relaxed.

The Mother

“Life is a beautiful game.

Not a test, not a punishment—

but a sacred play of the Divine through form.

In every moment, the child and the creator are one.

To live divinely is to play consciously.”

But you can only play, you can only play, when you are in awareness, if one plays with a shadow they are still merely a projection casting shadows upon the world.