The silence 

Silence is a wonderful mirror. See what happens if one becomes very silent.  If one stops acting, if one stops playing a role. See how the world reacts, how the mind reacts, see how, it expects, see how it concludes. The silence is the mirror to reality. Silence is the mirror to the other. Nothing more nothing less. Watch how the normally covered, the unseen erupts into its truth. Silence is the greatest teller. Be very still be very silent. And see what happens. Then you see the reality. 

‘Healing’ and intervention.

Actually, I’ve not enjoyed this word ‘healing’ for a long time now, it becomes such a preoccupation in the world of the spirit that some can spend their entire lives, just ‘healing’; engaging in spiritual experiences and never actually living, or being, or actually realising anything that sits more deeply beneath the surface. However as with all things, there is paradox, there is two sides to the story, and for those interested we can look at it. 

The soul might have an identified structure, people are now using human design, and there is an accuracy it seems to such sciences, and yet, and importantly, it is just another science, one that is not needed when one is within the truth of the human experience. The true soul, the self beneath all identification, is just presence, presence is awareness, if you are truly present, you do not need the soul map. You are the soul, you are presence. Within true presence, these ideas are just ideas. so how much we place and endow importance upon these particular aspects becomes sort of irrelevant. At a point, if one can be present, one need not know the science of the stars, one becomes the stars, one is at the intersection of all decision making. This is transcendence. When the mind clings to the soul, again it allows the mind to pre-occupy itself with an identity. With an inherent sense of I am this. ‘i am this soul’ ‘i have this identity’. Actually it is limiting, it is confining. Why do this to yourself? Why if one is unbounded, confine oneself to another structure. The ego likes its form. It will hold onto anything. It always wants to exist. Watch it. the soul, the self is born moment to moment, when one holds onto any ideas, there is distortion of the present. 

as human beings we can only speak from experience. i learnt a phrase recently, it is epistemic arrogance. I love it. And it essentially means when one pretends to know things when they do not, when they over-estimate their own knowledge. the dark loves to linger here. gives a sense of importance to itself. those that flippantly claim to know everything. it is good to question those that claim to know the be-all and end-all of everything, before they have even touched that reality. things they have not fully comprehended. ultimately it comes from an insecurity. ignorance is so in the dark, when suggestion of such a thing comes about, one can happily and easily pass over that which does not feed their sense of cultivated image. all good things apply to them, all bad things do not - i believe this is also something, in the west they have called cognitive bias. we might reflect to the self - i believe this one is lacking some humility, some grace - And assumes to know things they do not.

The self is the starting point of all things. The self itself is total presence. The Truest healing is total presence, since this is awareness itself. The self in this presence rarely needs to speak or act. Does not need to say anything or impose perspective on others. Neither does the true self actually hold or become attached to any perspective. So - if and when it does ‘say’ - what really is the intention. if one proclaims - “i see”, “i know”, ask, who sees, who knows? true healing is a part of the natural will of life, not ones own will over another, and this is an important distinction. A continuum rather than a disruptive mechanism. If one works through the projection of their own shadow, one is disrupting, is an actor the dark, not a mover of the light.

Healing is, awareness, awareness is within the other. Healing happens when one themselves stands in the light, and only then. Then naturally life comes, and naturally healing happens; igniting the healing power of awareness in the other. if one is enforcing, or becoming ‘healer’ or projector and are themselves caught in the idea that they themselves are the doer, this is a veil, a subtle but rather important blindness. One must not see themselves, as the doer, this is ego pretending that it holds the power. It is not this. the energy of total presence, total awareness, is the healing power - so the real journey is cultivating that within oneself. The healing of others is just the cultivation of one’s own presence. which is clarity. The journey is within and that heals without automatically. Then one does not need to act. One can just be, and by nature of that truest being, one feeds both physical and energetically into the atmosphere into the surrounding. The purest channels are the channels of deep listening. The cleanest mirrors. The stillest water. 

 remind the actor that it is not acting, it is never really us acting, it is life itself moving us, in all things, we are just the actors of its play, and we owe all our experience to life, to life’s beauty. We are merely its instruments not the ‘do-ers’. From this perspective this is an important distinction. Credit where credit is due. None of it is us. It is life, and when we think it is us, that is the slippery doing of the ego constructing another mask.  In fact it is. i am certain here. well as certain as one can be.

Shadow

The shadow is just that which one cannot see. It is unconsciousness. we do not have to hate the shadow, it is good to not, but we have to be protective at times, the shadow is an obstacle to reality. prevents us from seeing the self within all things. it is a block.

By virtue of our human existence, it is always lingering and very possible that there is always something we cannot see. But the more unavailable it is, the more suppressed it becomes, the darker and more vicious. The solution is bringing light, the solution is clarity! I remain fairly uninterested in the dark, for it really is just a deception, and projection of the mind, that is so false, it is barely real - yet here we are, in the world of form, dark is apparent and harm exists. Harm to life is anti-thesis to its purpose here. So it is something to discern.

The ‘dark’, oh the dark! in all its forms, within and without are met. Well, perhaps, it is until one is also able to discern and remain more fully in the light, that one dances with the slippery serpents of the night. But who knows. One’s process of enlightenment / of freedom is their own. Where one finds peace in whatever stage of the river is their own. The shadow is a very subtle phenomena, it is indeed a slippery thing, that likes to sneak in through the back door, since the darkest shadows are the ones that know how to play the game, they know the right words they know how to get what they want with the means available. In society you have the psychopath, in the spiritual world, you have the spiritual narcissists. Now these are just words for different experiences of reality, and yet, a shadow is a shadow and it can manifest, in the realm of matter. Now, the psychopath is fascinating. See the psychopath knows the rules of the material game very well. They seem to know that the reality is somewhat to be played, though they play it for their gain, they seek pleasure, they cling to pain, to hate, under the guise of a smile. They Charm and steal, and with this win over minds the minds and traumas of their victims. Learnt liars. But there is a cleverness to it, one has to be very intelligent. So you have those that lie in the material realm, but often if you are emotionally intuitive enough you can catch them. The spiritualists are worse, this is the dark side of the feminine. much more subtle, much more invisible, harder to see, harder to catch. spiritual blood suckers, the sneaky brown serpents, (to clarify here again, it is not the people themselves but the shadow that lurks beneath that become cultivated, and are often covered with pretences of love and light) the tricky thing with the spiritual is that they use all the right words, its very good. it can be very persuasive. those that have learnt the tricks of sight, but are not yet equipped to use their power, (and do not actually see) we might call them children with magical wands. Now see, they pose as real threats, since, they hold the real power, they hold some relative emotional understanding, and they have accessed some insights and ‘powers’ of life. Or perceived powers, since the true power is not what is perceived in the realms of magic, and spiritual projection. But now, they’re ‘readers’ or ‘seers’, those that pose with knowledge, but are not equipped - those who direct at life, and yet hold an umbra. That filters clarity into some projection. Sight from distortion, directing another’s soul, manipulating the minds of those navigating reality, ploughing through another’s sense of self, and soul. This one, feels almost unforgivable. It is this that has been the down fall, of religion, the righteousness, the self absorbed sense of rightness and a ‘knowing’ (that is inherently very unknowing) that these people seem to endow on other beings, who hold in the same accord, the same self essence as those they seem to be directing. But they do not know this, since this is the depth of the light, which they cannot know since they are in the dark. Sour! And it leaves a bitter taste in the mouth! teehee + A nasty treat. A teacher if you can withstand, but a vicious pill, a vicious hit. A venomous poison to the system, when you are exposed.

However, they are only dangerous if you give them the power, do not close yourself up, to hurt is to evolve, is to be sensitive enough to know the light. And when one can remain in the light, their attempted arrows, just go to pierce the air, go to pierce the water, that inevitably does not allow for the venom to stick. The self is sorted enough for this. projections are just projections, they become more of an insight into the others’ psyche. The shadow is very convinced of it’s own perspective, it is very rigid in this way, so don’t argue. remove self. fly away.

As a general rule, the shadow, is drawn to the light. And one only really has to deal with the shadow, when one needs to deal with it, and thus within; there is some respective shadow within them. at least some exposure, something that allows it in. So we can see all like a dialogue. It is a dialogue. it is a dance. A dance between the light and the dark. It has nothing to do with the being in reality, it is the interplay of forces. The shadow, works in nifty ways . It is a very good copier, think of it this way; how does a shadow form? It is an obstacle to the sun. So you can think of the shadow as something that takes shape, to block the sun, and it is able to do this by mirroring. The shadow mimics, it starts to copy. It is unsure, why, since the shadow is just the dark unaware of itself. But it will see something it wants, see something it likes, values and it will inauthentically copy it. it may try to suppress it or contain it. The shadow is a great actor, a fraud. The shadow is a pretence. Without really realising it. This is why discernment matters. The shadow is clever — but not aware. It plays its games unconsciously, seeking warmth from the light. It can copy -

the manner of the light very well— but without the inner sun, it can only remain a flat echo. And if you watch very carefully, with precision, the copying, the falsity becomes very apparent. But you have to be still. The shadow is actually unable to see — the light in the light of the light in the light of the light —  so it sees it from a place of obscurity, not particularly knowing what or why, but knowing that, perhaps it wants it. Yet every distortion in another or in ourselves, is an opportunity for consciousness to grow. We are what we let in. There is no bad guy here. As the being writes. It is a dialogue. It is an opportunity for growth. Symbiosis, for awareness to evolve.

a caveat; the spiritualists, who pose as pure and are carrying the baggage of many things un-looked at. where there is still much unawareness. Caution. Beware the finger pointers with counterfeit halos. Do not trust words! I have said this a lot now. Trust feeling, trust vibration, trust authenticity, do not trust spiritual language. Those that claim to know, often do not know. or know to the extent that their mind has concluded upon something - and TADAH - it seems to ‘know’ the truth! and the truth about another? but is the truth not ineffable and unknown? I have said very repetitively, the truth is beyond the word, so go beyond the word.

This particular problem has been notorious throughout religion, where certain power structures, and rightness’s are clung to, which then unconsciously force the being to suppress most of what they perceive of as wrong, which leads to an ever darkening shadow that is then projected onto others. when we condemn aspects of our human, that we see as not valuable, and ‘not serving’ we are denying the very existence of what might be existing. When the game at play is also about one’s inner being, about the self and about what they call ‘the soul’, such intervention can be so greatly harming, the mind system is a delicate framework, and one’s imposition can alter and effect the reality of another for the worse, particularly when they hold vital energetic power. It is like giving electricity to a cloud of ebony. The true power of divinity is sacred, the true light, but the half-light, can be incredibly damaging.

The use of power without purification, use of vital energy without sincerity, is dangerous, because the ego untransformed is tempted to misuse that power. The mother describes sorcery as this; ‘manipulating energies to serve desire, attachment, or ego. Even if it appears “light-filled” on the surface, its root is self-serving’. Sometimes consciously sometimes unconsciously, though all who harm, are deeply within the unconscious and are unaware of such things. True awareness is anti-thesis to hurting. Mostly they are doing harm to themselves, but they do not realise. Of course the dark does not know its digging itself an endless pit of self-pity and self-image.

Psychedelics and the fuel of egoic characteristics when one’s awareness remains stagnant. 

Psychedelics, are energy, they are plant spirit. But they are not the light itself. It is as they meet the human consciousness that they become medicine for the human being,!but still they are just the energy that follows from the existence of the human awareness. energy follows and flows from awareness. If one takes plant medicine and remains within their own patterns, intending to use the experience for pleasure, self indulgence, or set by an existing pattern, one can remain in their own loops, and psychedelics can just reinforce this - since they provide vital energy / life force, to what is already existing. Awareness itself is the total, it is not the psychedelic. These experiences, of such things are ultimately just experiences of the mind, they are experiences of altered consciousness. Yet the truth lies much beyond this. The ultimate, the observer, maintains itself through the fluctuations of energy and of psychedelic experience. The truth of life is the sequence, the process of neutrality and distance through movement and fluctuation. the sameness through all these experiences. use of these states without reverence and respect for something beyond, can become a tricky ego trip! leading to ‘insights’, but ultimately stagnation, ultimately giving energy and fuelling the unconsciousness.

For instance, a frequent interpretation (and I might add partial delusion if interpreted wrongly) that comes, is that one becomes the centre of the universe. Now the essence of this is not wrong in the sense that the self (the essence of all things) which is the sun, is the centre of one’s relative universe. But if in this interpretation still there is shadow, still there is unawareness, still the ego clings, one becomes quite self-deluded and self deceptive into thinking their child, the ego, is the centre of the universe. And runs a bit of a havoc since in their eyes they can do no wrong. just gently get out of the way! it is in actuality, cutting one off from actual divinity, the fabric that connects all things. Some complication here; it just re-confirms the existence of the ego’s experience of ‘god’ or ‘spirit’. again like confirmation bias, when it becomes just another experience of the mind. this tendency exists very commonly within the human psyche, that means that all experiences are interpreted within pre-existing values and perspectives. it can create a further ego separation between themselves and other beings. It is a misunderstanding, it is an un-transcended state that pretends to be transcended. Spiritually it is dangerous. The vital power that can be brought without clarity, without compassion without true understanding of light, can lead to much projection much energetic entanglement and darkness for those beings, and then for others in their vicinity. We can have compassion, but not be brought into the confusion of the dark, the confusion is jut the attachment, clarity is beyond that attachment, true light is beyond where darkness even has it’s reach.

It can allow one to believe that they are within the light of the divine when they are touching only the microscopic. 

In this process the exposure like a camera flash opens, but most significantly the light goes. So one is not able to hold themselves in the light even when they seep back into the dark. Since they expose, then retract. and rely upon the substance to enact this mechanism of opening. The substance is changing the mind- body system, but it is not doing much more than that. Awareness/ the absolute is beyond this experience it is beyond the mind. it is an understanding within the mind that goes beyond the mind. It is always existing, experiences in the mind-body are allowing further access to what is already existing. but ultimately they are still just experiences of the mind-body.  

When people speak of the infinite, speak of ‘death’ where the words ring dull and dry, or holds some kind of indulgence - this is most likely an attachment that allows that person to remain within a realm of self-narrative, since such experiences just feed the egoic attachment to spiritual experience. the observer knows, any experience itself; that is not ‘no experience’, or beyond experience, is just an experience of the mind - thus limited! Thus boring! I am in irony here.  One who has truly experienced the absolute can remain silent, and can communicate from there. Love is apparent. Love is subtle. Trust the silence.

The ‘half light’ gives conditionally on their own feeling of pleasure or godliness (word borrowed from the mother), are children with magical wands that insist upon their light, when unaware of the bottom. Many who gain fragments of the light then themselves feel they are embodying unconditional love, yet their energy that follows is complicated and confused. YAH trust the vibes! Trust the frequency. Trust how you feel around them. Do not buy into words, do not buy into spiritual ideas, particularly don’t buy into spiritual ideas. Most that speak it, do not actually know it. The truth is in the silence, how at peace are you in your silence. And those in the light, which just means awareness of the inner being and all that is there, when you walk into resonance, know that truth! And leave the other. family is frequency. Beware those that hold onto your ‘path of freedom’ as if it is theirs as if they have seen, as if they know, often it is them, attached to your freedom, unable to see clearly through a projection of their own delusion. 

the half-light creates spiritual performance, not real transformation. See what goes on beyond. 

witchcraft - black magic dark magic, is just unconsciousness, unawareness, shadow fuelled by vital energy, perhaps a psychedelic. It’s powerful because it’s like giving fuel to shadow, it’s making what is subtle, extravagant and 5D. When used in selfishness, one is just feeding shadow with energy, feeding negatively into the collective unconscious; that which is secret and unseen.

 If we say that life is a divine play, why does this pose a problem? If there is no inherent right or wrong? Well there is no inherent right or wrong in the sense of codes of mentally constructed morality, but there is a way in which consciousness acts and does not act, the way that one slots into the rubric of existence, where there are certain things that one naturally does and does not do. where one in touch with life, understands how the basic biblical laws came about. that it is antithesis to life, to kill, that it is antithesis to another’s autonomy to steal. Where a sense of autonomy in one’s own being, and in others is protected and sacred, given the sacred sameness. When we say ‘play’, there is levity, but there is in the same accord a deep inherent meaningfulness to every aspect, and a deep respect of life in every moment. one can only play, when one is within the light. There is a kind of innocence, and a clarity that ensures one is within the alignment of the natural order. It is not just about the individual, but about the resonance with the outer. It is about the formation of that individual in accordance with the principles of the game. Where no harm is done, and where compassion sits beneath it. Since the true light lies and is seen within all things, is not blinded by the ego’s perception that they themselves are the light, that they themselves carry the power, that they themselves hold something that others do not. this is a deception. 

Consciousness having a kind of ‘way’, a respect for the other, a sequence of movement that falls in line - 

This is transcendence. This is how human consciousness, overcame the old, the mother, nature, how we came to overcome the purely instinctual to become intuitive creatures. Human consciousness does have code, does have sense of protection over life, and beauty. Where does beauty come from? Perception of beauty is a human disposition, seeing with real beauty lies in the human capacity to feel awe, to know the preciousness of life, to know its essence, this is beyond, the instinctual grappling for power. One must relinquish all desires to be above. And to rest so simply in being nothing. To play unconsciously with falsehood is to stay bound in it. It is not real play, but a kind of superficial play ground set out for one’s own pleasure. With the child at the helm and the ego in the drivers seat. 

Thank the shadow, without the shadow we would not know what true light is. And without confronting it at least a few times, one cannot be as discerning. One must entangle itself with the serpent, many times, many times perhaps until one has learnt that rule of that game. They come in very many shapes and sizes these serpents. They are here to catalyse, to test the strength of your light. Know that if you are entangled it is meant to be that way, at least for now, and with each meeting of the dark, the light becomes lighter. For the light is true knowledge, true knowledge is awareness, and awareness is the ever growing ever-becoming eternal. That sees clearer and clearer. That oversees both the light and the dark. 

With clarity, it is not that dark fades, in fact dark may become more apparent, but how it affects or resonates is lost, since one stands so drastically and ordinarily in the light of itself. 

If entangled with dark, and out again, forgive self, forgive the allowance. it is what is is, but know you allowed the interference - protect the human, protect the self, protect the peace! protect the self, be around those that can love your human. that cultivate authenticity, and true existence. trust in yourself, in every present moment.

Greater the sensitivity to light = greater sensitivity to dark. 

when one is truly awake, you will laugh at your own seriousness. gargle mind like salt water. peace my G’s.

Indeed let us not dwell too much on the shadow.

Does awareness have a centre, or is it only the mind that keeps reaching for one? 

So let’s say awareness is existing within, regardless of whether one’s mind is aware of it yet, and ultimately it is the same, and yet continuously evolving at the same time. 

I suppose that is the paradox. 

Let’s say there is some kind of ground, but that ground is also infinite and ever-expanding. So in some sense, there is a continuity, a centre, but how one accesses this at various points differs as the fluctuations of the body-mind differ. As energy changes, as matter changes and constantly fluctuates. 

Here, it is that the being might even allude to the idea that this ever expanding nature of the self, the present, is the soul, is the evolution of the soul that is feeding into the general movement and growth of consciousness forward. that is connected to the one soul, the fabric of existence itself. So in some way, yes there is a continuity, whether It could be called a centre, the writer is not sure, but this continuity is also in a kind of flux and oscillation. 

So this ground, from this current understanding, is a ground, that starts to grow and become more clear, the more one lives and starts to distinguish, what the mind-body is, what the ego is what the self is, what it is not. The more mirrors and doors, the more lessons, the more discernments, awareness starts to grow, since the pattern and purpose of itself is to learn, is to discern truth from mistruth, to discern light from dark. And in this the ground of its understanding becomes more expansive. Now all of this is happening anyway. The difference with awareness / realisation is one is now the observer of these patterns and now in some way becomes the decider of the motions and joins the cosmological order. One is now in knowledge, of their part in the eternal movement. Becomes a distant observer, of the mechanism, the avatar living, an eternal being in relative form. So awareness is the ground of being. and it is the interceptor of ignorance. It is in and of itself the ground, the mind is the oscillation, the mind-body fluctuates, but that does not change the inherent nature of what is inherently existing. All that changes yes is how the mind has access to it. How much the expanse of awareness outweighs the existence of the mind. But awareness is always there, it never leaves. It’s leaving is our illusion. 

Awareness is the evolver. Is the source itself, still and always in motion. Always fresh, always alive.

If all perception is projection, what is truly seen? 

Actually not all perception is projection. Much and many of these ‘perceptions’ are projections. But projection happens when one is caught in the projection of the mind, is seeing beneath the veil, everything as it relates to them, caught in patterns and frequencies of their own mind and misunderstandings. The ground of awareness is clarity, beyond the mind. It is the pupil that strikes at the heart of the iris. It is not to say it is always 100% accurate and yet at a certain level of awareness you can be fairly clear that what you see is no longer you, but reality as it is. It is awareness penetrating. That is true perception. In this realm, it is very often, and the case, that true perception sits in the quiet. often and moreso it is clarity that reveals the truth of what is actually existing. So often it is so clear, but so silent, that one need not evoke its perception into a projection. case by case basis. Sometimes clarity is cutting. It does not hide, since it is also not so bothered by what it sees. it is just one’s own perception. And it is not even theirs. But the beyond’s. See true perception is not so attached to itself. What sees is not something that the ‘I’ can become attached to, since it is something that is not itself. 

————truth; the abyss —— 

what is the difference between falling into truth and falling into illusion, if both feel like surrender? 

well there is surrender into love, and surrender into uncomfortability. there is a surrender that feels at ease, and like home, and there is a surrender that feels frictional. perhaps falling into illusion is an active choice, falling into truth is just a happening, there is no act on behalf of the actor, it is just a happening. Truth in the abyss, there is much openness, much uncertainty, the whole world is ahead. Nothing is known, really it is refreshing, to not know. Trust the body, trust the feeling. Do not doubt in the expression of the body, the body is very intelligent. If one feels suffocated, tense, aggravated, one might be in the illusion. When one feels calm, in touch with themselves, able to be. Able to just be. This is the truth. Where you can put down the act and just be human. Just be raw. The surrender, is almost not needed, what are you surrendering to? Now you are just being, it is the natural state of the self. In this natural state of the self, there is a deeper continuity between this separation ‘truth’, and ‘illusion’, ultimately, they are the same, if one can rest in the expanse of that state. remain there, remain in that continuity.

Heaven 

The kingdom of heaven is within they say. Heaven is a frequency —- heaven —-  there is many, many realms of flitter flutter, many heavens many doors, some say seven, some say more. one heaven is like streams of stars, awareness recalibrating. it is awareness arising, the energy of awareness rising. frequency feeling, the heavens stop or so I’m told. But life holds endless gifts. Endless nodes, for the human experience, yet what is even beyond heaven, so far up or within it makes heaven seem ridiculous? Hmm. And what is the thing that holds all experience, all at a distance, since experience is just experience? ah the total!

What is that song that goes, ‘heaven is a place on earth’?

“The boundary between the human and more-than-human worlds [is], itself, permeable – that [it] never hardened into a barrier, but remained a porous membrane across which nourishment flowed steadily in both directions...” – David Abram.

This is a beautiful expression, I read this morning. it is a beautiful image, that sees the human - divine as a fluid process, ascension and descension, like air moving through a window, rather than stagnant, rather than a pool of mould and stagnation. rather than separate, distinctive, Breeding baby mosquitoes. 

Contacting the eternal then slipping back to form? challenging one. How am I here you might ask? This encapsulates the deepest acceptance of the paradox. GOD - human paradox. Human - beyond. Who are you, you might ask. And there is no simple answer to this question. Something singular and direct, and yet not at all? Something within but also without? 

It is easy to believe, once having fallen into the process of light; to feel that from then on life is something perfect and singular, that from now on nothing can take the perfection, nothing can diminish the light. Ah but here I am god!  I cannot be harmed! But see, no, you are still human. Oh you still have a bag of flesh and this thing feels? Ah and it feels all the time. Goddamn. It is relentless you might think. but this indeed is true openness to life, yes it hurts because you’re living and the world is full of children. yes and you yourself are a child. when one does not feel, you might ask, is one dead? yes if one does not feel, this is a death. this is a human death. worse than a human death! this is death, itself, worse than death, this is someone cut off from life!

The process is porous, and what a beautiful word. The idea that our being is like thin skin, like water, the essence of us moves across into the realms beyond and the realm within. And one’s identity, is not either, it is not one or the other. But both. We are the swimmers that cross these boundaries. As we are the essence of the seen, that is enveloped by this human. We are not one without the other. We are the mud and the sun:) 

The ground of sensitivity, silence, musical distortion // silence; the great revealer. 

The layers of Misunderstanding. the realm of being misunderstood. 

Sometimes it’s lonely, but reality itself is the friend. Connections are more rare, but they are deeper, longer lasting, more profound. One might meet on the ground of the eternal, and thus, one is with them always. There is no separation. As one meets beyond the concept of time. Meets beyond the structure of time. 

Most live from the place of mind. When one exists beyond that. No doubt, one enters a space that is not as easily comprehended. 

Truth is bound to be misunderstood, it works on such a subtle level, if one is not attuned to that frequency of sound, of resonance, yes the mind will interpret what it wants to interpret. The blind will say, it is mad. Truth is just a Reflection of the listeners state. Whenever the eternal is compressed into speech, it distorts. So misunderstanding is inevitable, especially for those clinging to certainty or comfort. Truth is like clear water — but the mind, fearful and clouded, sees only its own reflection. So the problem is rarely the water; it’s the one who drinks. anything that can be said is already less than truth, truth is in the silence. Truth reveals itself within the silence. 

Truth cannot be understood by the mind. Silence explains everything. Silence is the truth. What is there in silence, what is expressed in silence is beyond any word. 

This is the ground of resonance, beyond the act. See we act very much, we go to a coffee shop, we order a coffee, we play the role of purchaser or cashier. We enter relationship, we play the role of friend, the role of daughter. We play all these conditioned roles, at the level of the mind, we cannot help but see gender, we cannot help but see these separations, we cannot see how they, this other relates to us, we cannot see past ourselves. This is the mind. This it the level of the mind and a limitation of the mind. At the level of presence, at the level of self and soul, one goes beyond these separations. This idea of woman, of friend just become ideas. One becomes a vessel of consciousness, to enact memory in matter. 

The real question is, does it resonate, does it aid consciousness, aid awareness in its process of becoming, of learning and expanding into light. Does it move the eternal further into form, does it cultivate peace. Does it cultivate love. Love is also in the silence. True love resounds in silence. True love is awareness. 

silence is the true music, is the true sound.

Layers of enlightenment - 

Moments of lightening. Is specialty of self and soul just the mind? Is destiny just meaning created by the mind? ‘Meaning’ is made up. What is knowledge apart from wisdom? Where is wisdom found? Who is the true guru? 

Beyond the mind, There is no specialty. 

Beyond the supermind there is no specialty.

All meaning is created by the mind. 

The ultimate meaning is beyond any meaning.

Without any mind, one sits outside of the existence of life, outside the experience of life - this is what some have called total freedom, liberation, ‘Nirvana’. A place empty of its self-identity, free from pain, free from attachment, total absence of experience. A kind of Neutrality that sees all good and bad as one, and is apart from even that. 

And yet is that the point of this embodied reality?

This is not the end. The ‘end’ is not the end. Since an ‘end’ is anti-thesis to reality. 

This escape may be a part of the journey but not the whole, and not the resting place. 

It is Just the beginning. 

Ultimate liberation is not absence of experience, but the full awakening of consciousness within experience—so that awareness can live and act through matter itself. Nirvana is a stage, perhaps a resting point, but not the destination.

“The Divine is in all things, and the Divine wants to manifest. That is why we are here.” - The mother

Enlightenment is the ground of being, the ground of stillness, of clarity before thought, beyond thought and within thought. Yes one could say that the quality of enlightenment is the absence of thought, but it is also beyond this. How this particularity manifests is unique to each enlightenment. Thought / mind, as much as the body exists will always be in some kind of existence. That ground of being can still exist, even when one’s body-mind has this thing; thought, since it is separate. Actually there is no difference, since the body-mind can go through all sorts of things - it does not deny the existence of that unity, of the absolute. This unity, total presence, is not something that is forgotten or ever goes in reality. It is an unforgettable totality. The descent once more into separation is just confirmation that, that total thing is always In Existence regardless of whether that human being has access to it in its purest state. The state of perfection of total presence is an experience of the mind-body of the nervous system, and is therefore subject to change. So what is the unchanging? Of course it is beyond that.  How it withholds the essence in its beauty, is the mind-body system. But life is more complex than purity, than perfection. ultimately, one realises it is the same in all beings. even that enlightenment separation becomes another veil, to what is the same in all things. It doesn’t matter whether it is normal mind, no mind, super mind, spiritual god mind, any mind, mind always exists, until one has departed from the physical body. Until then one still has to live, in the realm of matter, in which some kind of mind is in existence. If one is void of absolutely any mind, then How do those teachers of emptiness speak? Because on some level there is still existence, there is still thought. Thought always exists, it may become more subtle,

It may even completely be dissolved, but this is not a static state. As life is also not a static state. 

how directly is such thought connected to that source? Thought is the tethering of being to material existence. if in oneness all thought, whether clouded or clear comes from the same place anyway, that purity of enlightenment can become another veil. ‘I know something that they do not’. This is the truth apart from the other. It is so far on the other side it is not involved in life. Look at the being so in the light! This spiritual wall is one that also must dissolve, the wall that pre-supposes itself as god must also dissolve. It’s subtle but the ego will cling to anything that places itself above the other. If the truest essence is the same within all, only when one sits within that fabric of consciousness, where one cannot perceive itself to be anymore than the cow next door, only then have the subtle layers moved beyond. When one rests totally in its own essence, and its own humanness. Where divinity is found both within its transcendence and its mud, where the general human thought, becomes also divine. When all expresses itself as the same. 

There are levels // there are layers, of Enlightenment, or the ‘layers of lightening’ - being calls them. they are not stagnant, they are not stagnations. They are layers of different experiences of the whole, it can take on many forms. Experiences of that, of that light, of the true light that encases all light, all - of the light that stems, sources, Then separates into matter to form the whole: the dark and the light. The macro that includes all the micro. There is not much difference whether or not that lightening is the total, or whether it is just life’s ebb and flow of light and dark. Since that hierarchy of light is also a separation of the mind. The paradox sustains itself here, there is and there isn’t a difference. one can know and tell in the present, words will fail here. How much lightening one has, how much vastness one can hold within. All are on the way, so to say. 

Clarity of word; where clarity exists beyond just the mumbling of the mind, this can be attributed more to the source. But even then, without the veil, of any spiritual ascension or hierarchy, that simple expression directly from that pure consciousness, is also just an expression of a single human truth. Through total unity the human becomes divinity. The human is totally divine. There is no coming from something beyond, that human is the beyond, since the beyond is also within the human. The unity means, one’s own thought becomes a thought from the whole itself.

If the information comes from the body of wisdom, a body removed from its own experience,

the words come from observation, this is different to knowledge, different to intellect. 

It comes from a different place, now one who is unable to comprehend this, might think, but is this not just many words? Some might even implore - ‘monkey mind’! ‘Is this not many words? They might exclaim. 

No, one is able to channel experience of life into word and it be from a place beyond one’s own self-narrative, thus an experience of awareness itself. It doesn’t matter how many thoughts, how many words, it is one’s relationship to them. Relationship. Detachment. A lack of possession of the thing. All is how we relate. 

How do all those spiritual books get written? It is not the same as just ideas or intellectualisation. direct seeing, direct awareness is a ground of being and one can have clarity and form discernments within this realm that can produce thought but are apart from the attachment to the thought. Discernment is apart from judgement, discernment creates a lighter ground of being and brings one’s being into further vastness. Judgement creates constriction. The endeavour of truth to its very end, requires that field of wisdom. There is truth beyond the truth. There is always more truth beyond the truth. And one’s truth is one’s own. It is coming from awareness itself, not just mental pre-occupation. It is a process for that soul’s evolution, to where it belongs and where it does not belong and it evolves further and further into vastness. it is endless. It is clarity. Wisdom is the true knowledge is the true light. The point of self is the point of one’s own human clarity, one can depart from this, but with more wisdom, and then return, where the ground becomes more vast, deeper and more beautiful. It is ever expanding. One can dip dive, in the mud, then return to the whole better knowing. The mud is experience, the mud is human, the mud is a part, the mud creates contrast, and that contrast infuses the ground with more understanding. That place, that ground, always exists, is always in existence, how much access we have to it, varies; ebbs and flows, grows, diminishes. 

It is not so much the usual mind, but a collection of experiences that become sources of true human existence in and of themselves. Without these paths being carved, without those ready to go beyond pre-conceived ideas of truth - without those ready to face life on the precipice of their own creation, we would be very stuck in the rigidity of the past, of old stories and of other’s stories. The present is now, the wisdom is now, life is now! One can only speak from experience, that is wisdom, that is divinity, that is the ultimate, when one can find in this abyss of life, the certainty and the clarity of their own human life, apart from the conditioning of the past and of others perceptions. A book is just a book, words are just words, life is living. Life is one’s openness to its experience. Knowledge is accumulated by reading, by finding a structure of existence the mind likes, a system, perhaps a school of spirituality, and then perceives reality through this small window. 

Wisdom, takes the window, smashes the glass, and flies out into the blue sky. takes from the past, outgrows it and manifests itself in the present. 

Wisdom is not just expression of the mind from projection, but is a source of light itself,  it is a human in touch with their own reality, apart from anyone or anything else. since it comes from direct observation and direct experience. Thus the quality of the word is different, the quality of the sound is different! How flow is the flow? How continuous is the stream? 

It comes from a different body. A different code, and different manifestation of consciousness. Aware of itself. 

Knowledge is stiff, rigid, clothed in a stale robes, of rights and wrongs. Limited by its own thinking. Wisdom is alive, it is fresh, totally new. Un-conformist. Many people miss real wisdom, real light because they walk into every situation with expectations, with preconceived notions and ideas of themselves and of others. If one is not actually present, aware enough to receive reality, one will miss true light, they will miss true wisdom. Because they are viewing reality from a window, not the sky of being. 

Take the guru in India, if a true guru was wandering the street, most - the majority would miss it. People only know a ‘guru’ when they are clothed, or placed atop a pyramid. Just as they only know a holy man from his robe. True light is existing everywhere, the true guru is the quiet man in a coffee shop, and woman upon a hill next to a fruit shop. The true guru is within you, but the curtains have to open. Old notions have to dissipate, one must come into life. Then one can see all as a guru, as they themselves are the teacher. As the true guru is awareness and is found within all things. all are teachers, as reality is a mirror to our perception, to our quality of existence, to our own guru within. It is not down to the teacher, but the receptivity of one’s own willingness to perceive all as god. 

Truth is not found where people usually expect it. Truth is already existing. But you have to be present enough to see what is already there. 

‘Seeing’ 

• + relation

  Is there a kind of ‘neutral eye’ that can emerge in stillness? When I say ‘I see’, is that occurring from the field of the person or from the field of consciousness itself? Is it possible to see clearly and feel deeply, without letting the feeling distort the clarity? Can anger be seen clearly, without narrative, without identification? And if so does that clarity soften or intensify its presence. Observation versus interpretation? If there is something like manipulation, is neutrality always the best option, or is action also a form of seeing? 

There is no right answer, there is never a ‘right’ answer. There are just many various kinds of answers, and probabilities, that all hold a different outcome. reality is a conglomeration, of variously different situations that are ultimately all different and eternities in and of themselves. But true reality, is when one comes out of same-same patterns. the same-same patterns are where people fall into roles, that become predictable. that produce the same outcome. When one can deliver their truth with their eyes open. One is speaking with clarity. When the eyes remain shut, and the being distracted. One speaks from interpretation, general rule + there are always things that go against the rule + but general rule. Eye is the portal to the soul. listen also to the continuity in speech. The eyes are telling. see what lights as one speaks, see in what way the eyes rest. If they rest or if they pierce. If one’s eyes are searching or trying, they are projecting. The eyes that truly see are relaxed, untrying to ‘see’ anything. True sight is often not so occupied with itself. That’s perhaps a sure way to tell. 

Consciousness is clarity, awareness is clarity, ‘seeing’ does not mean superseding clarity with ideas, spiritual ideas of ‘love’, or the ‘infinite’, these are just ideas. Clarity is more specific, constantly changing. Clarity, means seeing what is actually there. Whether that be, anger, sadness, etc whatever it may be, it is not a warped interpretation based off of very little actual reality, it is not fluffy, it is direct. It is not projection, or misinterpretation, it is just clarity, that comes from beyond the mind. It is the sharp clarity of awareness that comes from observation, that comes from stillness. When we say ‘I see’, one must ask who ‘sees’, who is it that is proclaiming such sight? 

When one claims to see another, it is often projection. If one pre-supposes to know another more than they know themselves this is projection. Spiritual projection. This light is a beautiful gift, but is a subtle veil of the spiritual ‘knower’. one need not interrupt the souls natural flow, when one imposes a structure upon it, or places it in relationship to them, this is a subtle form of ego. Or a gross one. This claim is unfounded. It is just projection, total absence does not impose itself, it is not so concerned. It is equilibrium to that consciousness existing within them.

Spiritual pleasure, spiritual godliness, infuses a sense of righteousness, of seeing and knowing. It is not always right, it is not asked for, and when out of turn and balance, it is not necessary and imposing. Who is it imposing one’s own perspective on the perfection of life as it is? 

To truly see, one must cease doing, and witness. The problem with most seers is they are trying to see. Effort = not actually seeing. One can see when one is clinging to an image, one can see, when one is ‘trying to see’. Read the silence. This is true seeing. Many things are revealed in silence. 

after some time, one might become bored of ‘seeing’, is seeing not also just a pre-occupation with this identification of seeing? ‘hmm let me establish myself as someone who can see’. this thing sight, it is not always trust worthy. As human the only thing we can be, is humble in our perspective. okay see, but do not place so much importance on what you see, is this also not just a pre-occupation with another? particularly if this seeing is used to pigeon hole, another into some kind of system - this is not seeing, this is projecting. this is human psychology, the relationship is to self and to self alone. it is not really about the other, so why are you bothered? why do you care to see? and who is it that cares to see, then to tell? now seeing from the deepest perceptive, seeing from beauty, this is truthful, this is absent of projection, one can observe free of obscuration. clarity of the system allows this. seeing, from a place absent of what one ‘thinks’, this is seeing. seeing from a place that cares not to place that sight into some mode, construct or diagram that allows the mind to feel safe in it’s authority.

When people claim to ‘see’, often what we see is just a reflection of what our current perspective is. life says, yes, ‘i am a mirror to you and you to me’, ‘do not forget me just because you are too human to remember’. life is the mirror to your seeing, life is a mirror to your perspective, the deepest part of who you are is what is reflected back to you. So if you observe carefully whether people move away or gravitate towards, (though don’;t hold onto this) if one is watching their own character in this life very pleased with it’s progression, one becomes tricked into naval gazing, and it is just another absorption. If others are stirred in your presence, if they become confused, that is your presence. If others are calm, at peace, in your company that is your presence. That is the mirror to who you are, not the projection that sees all in its limitation. It is not the other, but a mirror to you. 

but see, see how much one can truly perceive of the other in all their glory. to see life from a perspective of awe. a place so small it is almost insecure of itself. for the world is so vast, beautiful and it seems everyone knows many more things! see if you seem to know many things, and if you do, this is the ego, to know is to be caught in the rigid structure of the mind. it is to see through a system, a box, a small window, it is not truly to see. this is projection. it confines reality to a pixel, just for it’s own comprehension, for it would not be able to hold, maintain the incomprehensibility of life. this would be too scary of it. to become nothing. to become truly nothing.

Does clarity require detachment? Or is it possible to remain within the relational field and still be seer? 

It is possible, it is possible, but is it needed, is it desired? it is possible to remain in something, act even, understand the role of seer, and surrender to an act, to a stage set, remain within a relational field of misunderstanding, still remain detached. but why would you? and after time, this restriction would start to screw you to a form, to something it does not intend to be. perhaps in the process of surrender, a trust in the process of life, one can become lost in the role. if one has enough separation, one is able to feel deeply and still see clearly, this is true. but perhaps more simplistically, when we feel we accept the feel, we accept the hurt, who needs to see from the otherside? we are all imperfect. our occupation should be with ourselves, not with the other. The seer does not necessarily ‘need’ other, BUT, there are things and places consciousness would not find itself in, places where awareness is cultivated and where it is not. it is not necessarily that just because one is pretty held within itself, that it does not require space to be, and to be held. again we are human, yes. we are relational beings. there are places where we do not belong. there are relationships we do not belong in. there is no right or wrong. there is just music. does it sound? does it create harmony? if not, why linger? listen to the silence. when you are not seen in your silence, it is not meant to be. one need not also find a ‘perfect’ match. awareness is really the point. Partnerships that cultivate further awareness, that is the point. all human beings are so uniquely different, nothing will come close to the relationship one has within. but someone that allows for that cultivation of self within, that strengthens the self within, the love of self within. this is a partner. someone that takes you away from the true clarity one has of oneself, for the love one has for itself, is not a true partner but an enemy. yes love the enemy, but know the true suitor. partnership that is not stiff, rigid stuck, in ideals and expectations. that is fresh and new every moment. perfection is not needed here, but enough humility, a willingness to learn from each-other, to be intimate in the most finite and microscopic aspects of the being, that can become opened, unravelled, seen, held, and worked upon as a stone carver etches into temple stone. relationships, can become the most beautiful mirrors of resonance, they can be, they can also be distortions. one can also easily fall into the trap of ‘learning’, finding themselves incased in looped cycles of the same drama - cycles, of shadow and ‘learning’, when the reality is, this learning becomes another addiction to one possessed by ‘problem’. addicted to the play of power. Spiritual or psychological, it is the same, watch how the same patterns play out in certain people. it is karmic, it is what they call karmic. the same patterns of leaving, of hurt, of deception. one is victim another perpetrator. ultimately, relationships are a happening of life, if you’re there, you’re meant to be there. but do not remain stuck in another’s cycles, watch the patterns. Don’t be a pawn in another’s game. there are beings here that came to play with power, let them, but do not be yourself convinced just because they hold conviction. They are teachers of the dark. See, but release the hold of that seeing, and when the pattern is so stuck do not deceive yourself into thinking that you will be the recoverer of it. that is your own attachment. leave it to the wind leave it to the water, see your attachment. release yourself from confinement. It is possible for the seer to be seen, in the formless yes but also in the form, it is possible. so as i have said. go to where the sound resounds. find those children on the same playground. if company is what you seek, find kindness, find those willing to receive your human, find listeners, do not find projectors, do not go seeking for the mind. everything is absolutely possible, everything imagined, is possible, is beyond imagination. life is even beyond this. find, what it is you seek, everything is within reach, do not hold but know it will come. Do not ask your freedom to be seen, be free, and then be free from that expectation. Be free even from the thought that you are ‘free’. Who is ‘you’? and what is ‘free’ if already, at the essence we are all free, what identity is getting in the way of that true freedom. it depends on how one is able to see. what you see is what you are. if you see jealousy, jealousy is there, if you see freedom, freedom is there, if you see wisdom, wisdom is there, if you see teacher, teacher is there, if you see enlightenment, enlightenment is there, if you see consciousness, you are the fabric of consciousness itself. whatever you see is what you are, is the level of your perception. that is how reality is a mirror to you. So how deep is your perspective. how much light does the eye let in? how much beauty is within your eye, is within your perception?

+elevation+

let people see what they need to see. let the fearful have their safe, let them have their cage. be daring, be hurt, be emotional, true freedom cannot be contained by another, be vast in your freedom, and those that are meant to be there with you, naturally they will come. . that is the magnetism. that is the music, that is the sound. be the stillest water, be reflective in your own being and reflect that beauty back to the other. some will not see, but those that do, that is the epitome of how the formless touches itself in form.

So

Memories / past lives / spiritual powers / role

is the soul role fixed, veiled or fluid?

If you cannot see other as witness, you have not met yourself purely as witness. the self in it’s total. Anything up to that, is an experience. the true self is just the witness. Experiences are part of the total, not the total. the true witness will see every kind of expression as directly from that source itself, not in how it relates to them. Subtle forms of ego; the spiritual maze. the soul in all is the soul that rests in the fabric of consciousness, one sees all as consciousness progressing in one motion forward. all the same inherent structure. soul separation is a layer, but there is beyond that. The fabric of consciousness is the same within all beings.

‘There is a purpose but it is not a script’

It is more the point of emptying oneself enough so the role plays itself. The role is not static, it evolves as the being evolves. Even the soul itself moves through stages of development. One might begin with a certain inclination or capacity but that grows, becomes subtler, more refined, perhaps more wise. Even this essential, is refined, evolved, expanding. And even this is not something to be held onto. The soul’s role is not static, it grows through lives, it sheds skins, it deepens in truth in authenticity becomes more specific perhaps, more refined. 

Those who claim spiritual destiny, to mask unconsciousness = the ego is extremely clever, it knows how to dress its desires in divine garments. 

True awareness eliminates darkness. When true awareness is present, ignorance cannot stay intact. True awareness does not accept darkness as an identity. The role of the dark in the manifested world, is apparent, is indeed apparent, but when one becomes aware of this, that ignorance - shadow naturally becomes a point of transformation. Not of acceptance and stagnation. This is the laze of the ego. 

“I know my darkness. I embrace it. It’s my role” 

This often reveals a false synthesis, a mental or egoic attempt to reconcile contradiction without real transformation; Spiritualising darkness, is not real light. The ego claims awareness but has not fully dissolved its attachments to the shadow. to say this is my nature, this is my role, is to rigidify ones being into another kind of structure. This is not true soul. This is the ego attached to the idea of divinity. This is still the nifty work of the ego, of the mind, of something clinging to certainty. claiming self love, when it is conditional, still hooked on unconsciousness, unwilling to look at the parts it wants to remain avoiding. the true soul may witness darkness but it never rests there. So one may accept darkness as part of the whole, but awareness moves this darkness into transformation, moves it into the light, it does not become stuck here. This is just spiritual rationalisation for remaining unconsciousness, it feels safer there. Spiritual power, spiritual sight even, is something to let go. It is an experience of the whole, it is not the whole, when someone becomes pre-occupied with sight, pre-occupied with their own enactment of the divine; This is a mask that gets in the way of true humility, of true light, of true presence - the witness. The true light does not witness its effect on the other, it is engrossed in its own grace and presence. Concern of the other, spiritually or not, is subtle ego, looking to see its own effect, looking to indulge in itself. What for you might ask? But to solidify its own hierarchy. 

People may experience many things, many colourful powers, many insights, they might be able to travel in the astral realm, …they might remember past lives, commune with beings, feel energy moving in visions and signs—but all of this, all of it, is still within the play of memory and of form. It is not yet the stillness of Being. These powers, these memories, are still just experiences of the mind, they are hurdles on the way, they are nice mind treats, but they are not at all the essence, not at all the total. It is easy to fall into this trap. Since the experience of these things is very pleasing. Truth is beyond this. Watch it. It is beyond this. 

The danger is not in the experience—it is in the identification. But life is not interested in the image. It does not care what realms you’ve travelled through. Visions, images are just experiential nuggets. Life cares only if you are empty enough to let it pass through you. Emptiness does not project its own vision onto another. It is content in being, so is content in allowing another to be. The soul, when mature, no longer clings to its gifts. It lets them fall away like petals. Even the most beautiful power becomes a veil if it is grasped. If one asserts one’s perspective over another it is still just an expression of one’s own over another’s autonomous soul. One cannot truly know about the other, in the deepest place of beauty, in life’s deepest perspective, there is no separation, no knowing over another, there is just knowing of oneself, that is the true power. There is nothing one can know over the other. Watch how the human mind wants to exert itself over other. It is just supplying separation as a means to exert an unexacting hierarchy. The spiritual ego. true spiritual power is give only when one no longer seeks it. some are so blinded by the ‘light’ of themselves, that that also becomes a subtle veil, one cannot truly see the other, this place, still is just interpretation. subtle separations.

Darkness is a veil. But so is light.

Not all that is blissful is free. Not all that is luminous sees.

The one who clings to their shadow may call it truth, but often it is a fixation, a refusal to rise, a kind of loyalty to pain or power, masquerading as authenticity. And one who bathes in spiritual light, who feels the bliss of height, may have transcended—but still height can be veiled. Not because the light is false, but because if we hold this to be true, naturally, unconsciously, where one has not stepped down from it, it removes one from the equilibrium of reality. essential neutrality. They are still waiting to be met, not meeting. Still standing above, not beside. bliss, vision, becomes a hierarchy. It says, ‘I am more awakened’. It sees through a lens of elevation, not of equality. And that elevation, even when drenched in light, is still a separation. The true soul is level. It meets the other without needing to be seen as more whole. It has no need to shine. It just is. It sees through the veil of both darkness and light. Not seeing one apart from the other. all awareness is the light of the divine itself.

Caution both;  The veil that says, I am broken, this is my truth, and the veil that says, I am beyond, I am divine. Both are masks if they do not listen. Listening is an essential quality of the witness. Both are performances if they cannot sit on the same ground. If the light cannot kneel beside the dark, it is not yet love. If the dark cannot allow the light to come close, it is not yet living. when we release both masks—the mask of suffering and the mask of superiority—we meet as we are: unguarded. Witness meeting witness, human bowing to human, in reverence to their inherent divine nature. 

Nakedness. Is a straight answer. When it can sit in the dark and know the sun is still there. When it can sit silent even if it wants to say. Devoid of pleasure, devoid of its power. Still who are you? Even in your re-separation who are you? The true myth, Both human - GOD, both and neither.

+++++++++++++++++. The question is who can you be in the void?  ————— VOID ————————

When self-image is gone, when bliss is gone, when grace slips through the cracks of the gutter, what suspends a being when all is lost but life. ah the answer is here, left to the latter; life itself. what is truth but life itself, the miracle of this tenderly horrific, yet brimming with ecstasy-existence. what is left, when all identities unravel themselves, where one is suspended, in nothing, when nothing is rooted in pleasure or pain. nothing rooted in the high. in what state, and what and who are you when there is nothing left. where; like an ocean evaporating into mist, all things dissolve. there is nothing but the breath. No, here, you are not God, not even super-conscious. Not even continuous, perhaps you are heavy. perhaps everything is dull, there is no past, nor future. so what lays here, where there is nothing to grasp. where not even stillness describes accurately a kind of emptiness, the body withstands. Who are you even in this? when the state of observer, is marred, and is left observing something druid and hard. ah here it is again, the answer; the observer. What is it that rests, behind those eyes, that breathes through long winters, through the cold. what survives meaning? what is there even when the pulse dims, AH the pulse itself! Who are you when you are nameless, maimed -

like a caught fish, in a net you thought you’d escaped. VOID - a passage, a hall, the zone of the unknowable, the inbetween, a dissolution of the false, a waiting room in a tennis court, apprehending the real. A passage, an incubator, death of old news, like a snake shedding pale scales. ALIVE! Before the ascended, before ascension, an inner desert, where the moon covers the sun, only to reveal its new dimensions of being. powerless, naked, exposed, yet still, and clear without form or narrative to cling. This is an essential. Cultivator of trust! Not just a wicked thrust! If you can see it as such. it is all perspective. Keeper and maintainer of patience! 

The dull, bleak is a death of reference. you learn; over time, i am this, i am not this, i am this, i am not this. the layers become more subtle, more refined, identity becomes more subtle, still present until all are cast off its back. until the snake is hollow empty and turned inside out. i am this, i am not this, i am this, i am not this. i am this, i am not this. And so the process goes continually, over time, and over time, until one is completely naked. there is nothing left. You might ask who am i now, and then you can just laugh!

One is not purely the self, one is not purely, god, not purely human, not purely white, black, dark / light, one is not colour, and one is absolutely colour. One is not just orange, or turquoise, or purple, or blue, not just brown or indigo. Maybe they are the rainbow. Maybe they are not the rainbow. Maybe they are both the rainbow, and not the rainbow. The point is, formlessness is unquantifiable. So when you remain quantifiable, saying things to yourself like - ‘I am this’, ‘i am this describable thing’ - you are defining yourself. then still you are left to unravel. And if this process never-ends then what in this moment suspends you if it is not the emptiness itself. Yes someone has said emptiness, again, many speak of it, but true emptiness. There is one. Remain undefined. Oh sweet subtlety, only does the subtlety see.

You are not this, nor that. Not purely human, divine, colour, concept, or form. Not even the rainbow—but also, maybe, entirely so. The paradox is the pointer. Bare and awake without walls.

Spiritual Narcissism, shadow coated in light - but now we BOW!

Spiritual narcissism, is the ego’s hijacking of the spiritual path to preserve it’s own identity, control and superiority. ego clothed in spiritual ideals is harder to uproot than ordinary desires. And it is more subtle. the more certain someone is of their spiritual authority, the more blind they may be. true beings, true teachers of light do not force others to bow. do not condemn anothers boundary, as a problem with them. they will assume superiority, deny another’s inner workings, they will use spiritual rhetoric, to avoid true intimacy accountability or vulnerability. This hierarchy will be used to assert a kind of supremacy over others. from this perspective people will be placed in rank, as to how worthy, or conscious. from a place of unconditionality, such a framework is not apparent.

Sri Aurobindo writes:

‘The half-light is a false “freedom” that hides behind spiritual language or half-awakened states -

but that uses “i am free” to avoid true intimacy, true seeing and true compassion.

“the powers of darkness often wear masks of light”

Kahlil Gibran writes; “i have seen some of you wear freedom as a cage”

Unconditional love, is not personal property, when a being claims, ‘unconditional love’ it is most likely self-deception, The mother, cautioned anyone who says “i possess unconditional love” , “my love is unconditional” because declaration often comes from egoic identification with a virtue. it seems almost obvious. when one perceives of themselves as possessing the very thing that cannot actually be possessed by a being since true unconditional love is apart from that which can be owned. when life truly floods you, one is not deceived in thinking it is them. the true light, the true force of life is strong enough to dissolve any thinkings that this might in fact be ‘your’ possession, ‘your’ love. oh it is not. if one truly embodies unconditional love, the characteristics of such being will be, a profound humility, absence of need for control or recognition, free from personal reaction, and radiant peace not self-assertion.

When people say i love unconditionally, and yet demand, control, reject, this is vital affection, pretending to be divine.

The further along, the more one moves closer to the divine, the more subtle, intense and dangerous the attacks, or deceptions of darkness become. far from becoming easier, the path becomes more refined and the opposition more cunning. “the brighter the light, the darker the shadow”. the cosmic struggle; as one moves towards the light, the darkness, the subtlety of all things becomes apparent becomes more apparent. gravitation of dark towards the light is phenomenal, but it is here to test your magnetism towards the light. it is here to release attachments. all attachments. bow to the shadow, humble yourself before all. this is the lesson. all are your teachers, all allow one the capacity to bow, to remain human to remain humble, to not rise to those expectations, to not rise to projections, to not rise to misunderstanding. for who is it in you that is misunderstood? to allow all things to slip past one as water. rest in the grace of being human.

BOW TO THE DARK… bow to those teachers, they are even more teaching, :) see what they have shown you. all others, all are mirrors to your own light, to your own distance to your own grace, welcome them, bow to the essence of them, since at the very structure they are the same. this is the deepest perspective. yes given, it is not always possible. it’s okay, allow the mishap, allow the felt expression. but remain so totally in the light of yourself, protect what needs to be protected. but bow. oh the grace of bowing. actually it is the only answer. if they want you to bow. bow. this is your lesson. this is your process. keep the clarity, but with authenticity, see beyond, and bow to that which is within them, that which is also within you.

it is not a pretend bow, it is a willingness to see beyond your own friction. Give others what they want, what they expect to see, often fighting it, is just reconfirming one’s own ego, and if the process of this is the dissolution of this very essence, what a perfect way to surrender. surrender. the self takes what it needs and leaves the rest, often the best way, albeit the only way, is to continue to play. why not. try to bridge that gap of misunderstanding, try it. it will not work. move along, move away. the only way that actually feels right to the self, is to bow. the friction, one’s own projection even if projected at, does not soothe the self, just keeps aggravation, and that does not keep the peace. hmm. keep the peace. why not. the self knows that bowing out is the only option, since when did it care to engage?

dare to be misunderstood! dare it, and just bow. what to do with projections but let them sink into the light?

here’s the other paradox. i write a perspective. and i am always sort of surprised that i have a perspective. there is something clarifying here. there is clarity. it exists. and yet, it is also something that feels fairly at a distance. who’s perspective is this? and where does it come from?

the dark is so cute ! enjoy it! return to soft identity, see the lightness see the play, enjoy it as part of the whole. we must find it funny. take the deep, and bring it into levity. this is the play. don’t be caught on yourself, dont’ be caught in the mud that sinks. let the sweet bubble of grace, hold your being. play the game, then know better where you belong. seek the playground, not the mud that sinks.

And when we pass through the entanglement of the dark, the serpents of murk, the light only grows, the ground of clarity becomes clearer.

Quantum entanglement

+ energetic entanglement

+ energetic parasites

Quantum entanglement is a phenomenon in quantum physics where two or more particles become connected in such a way that their physical properties are linked, no matter how far apart they are in space.

Simple explanation:

Imagine you have two dice that are magically linked. You roll one die in India, and the moment it lands on a six, the other die in Japan instantly shows a six too. No signal traveled between them—they just know each other’s state.

In quantum mechanics, this happens with particles like electrons or photons. When they’re entangled, measuring one particle immediately determines the state of the other, even if it’s light-years away.

Before measurement, each particle exists in a superposition—a cloud of all possible states.

• When two particles interact in certain ways, they become entangled, meaning their states are not independent anymore. Instead, their combined state is defined as one whole system.

• After entanglement, measuring one particle collapses both into a definite state, no matter the distance.

The particles seem to be connected beyond space and time. Entanglement is at the heart of quantum teleportation, quantum cryptography, and future quantum computing.

The EPR Paradox (Einstein, Podolsky, Rosen) was a thought experiment that challenged entanglement, calling it “spooky action at a distance.” But experiments (like Bell’s Theorem tests) have confirmed it repeatedly: the quantum world really does behave this way.

Energetic entanglement:

In physics, quantum entanglement refers to particles being inextricably linked, no matter the distance. In the spiritual-energetic or psycho-emotional sense, we often feel a similar tethering to people — especially in intense or significant relationships.

Threads of resonance formed when, access is allowed into the inner field, through trust, intimacy, attention etc. energy flows bi-directionally, Consciousness becomes co-dependent or overly attuned to the presence of the other, even in absence.

Physical distance does not matter so much since the entanglement is more subtle, created patterns held in the body (fascia, breath), the nervous system (reflex, memory), and the mind (image, identity, story). What people call chords are just persistent pathways of attention, entrenched emotional reflexes, Inner parts that still reference the Other in defining Self.

So what is ‘magic’, in this context?

the power of will, attention, and symbol.

Energetic holds form when; one being grasps the other, through love, fear or resentment. The unconsciousness can attach itself in many various ways, to an image, to the light of the other. Or when both unconsciously agree to keep dancing around an unresolved charge.

it is still all totally in the mind. But the mind body system holds onto things and such. So it’s like residue.

those a little deeper than just emotional residue. Dealing with forces of darkness we can call;

ensnarement of light by shadow — a kind of parasitic attachment // what some call a shadow bind. It is let in, yes, but it is also more vampirous, and directional.

The deepest shadows lay beneath veils of light. (We have discussed).

A shadow attachment forms when someone—either consciously or unconsciously—feeds off light: usually it is

Unconsciously, since one aware of itself, does not find itself in a position of having this manifested. Shadow is shadow because it is something one cannot see.

clarity, joy, life-force. But this isn’t simple vampirism. It’s more insidious. Often these energetic entanglements will also come with a physical manifestation: perhaps an actual parasite, bacteria infection, STI etc. the giving of it, will be careless, unaware of the harm being done.

It involves: Deep projection: they see what they lack in the light and try to own in, in whatever way they can. Possessiveness masked as connection. A magnetism not born of love, but of hunger, a drive for something; maybe a hierarchy, a way to gain. Often this starts with genuine resonance—you open, you let them in. Perhaps you hold an image of them, that they have provided for you. That they have presented / often unawarely. But if they have unintegrated shadow especially around power, worth, they may unconsciously cling to your essence as a source of their own.

Possession can be as simple as one, trying to own the narrative of another’s existence.

They don’t mean to harm you — but they can’t let go, because you carry something they cannot yet cultivate within themselves.

Shadow void of its own light, will mimick (as we have discussed) and try to dim one’s light. Not often intentionally, but just by virtue of being so in the dark. Fake idolatry, praise, where it is inauthentic. The shadow does not want to let go. There’s often partial consent in these connections. One has opened the door.

It is interesting that on the quantum level, within these subtle realms, we can hold these entanglements, and relationships can entangle through a small crack in the door, a small crack in the self. We don’t always know - that is for sure - we are just human. We cannot always be certain. But here we learn. Remain unattached! The shadow is confused, you can only be confused if you buy into its confusion, so remain in the light, name it for what it is. Only the attachment will remain befriended to the shadow. One must see clearly, with clarity and move on.

“Power lurks and lays in the shadows”

What seeks power? What in the world of the animal is drawn to power? Those even on the path to freedom seeking power? What is the drive of power seekers? If it is not the anima, the shadow that seeks to claim the sun?

It is the children that seek power.

Those who seek Power, often unawarely, stagnate, run loops in their own self-made maps.

Why do people seek power? It comes from many sources, but stems from egoic insecurity. Control and defense are those grasping for dominance in order to compensate for what is lacking, for an inner fracture. Even the most subtle expressions of power, are a grossness through the lens of subtlety.

Some on a ‘path of freedom’, are not truly content with what it means to be truly empty. To have nothing to suspend itself but emptiness. This brings a great fear to people, so a structure of freedom is found, another kind of structure to maintain its position. For many power is a substitute for real love. Those that use power : they do not know truly what love is yet. they have not been taught it yet, as all is a matter of learning. They have not been taught what it truly is yet. There’s some sadness there. Some pity, but do not remain attached to the pitiful. They might think money is love. If that is all they can give, well okay. But see it is compensation, for money holds no real power, just an illusory one. They might feel over-compensation is love, gift is love, love within some regular or irregular confine is love, they mean; love = something. But love cannot equal anything. Love is the substrate of emptiness itself, the flow of life, boundless it too cannot be named, it too has no form. It too is awareness. Those that do not know truly love, that cannot love truly; chase conditions, chase ownership, chase status, influence. Power becomes the mask they wear to receive what they believe they must earn. Real intimacy, surrender, humility—these are terrifying to a power-seeker. Why? Because they require exposure. It means seeing what is really there. Perhaps now they cannot place themselves above the other. Power offers a fortress, an ability to avoid vulnerability. To avoid sensitivity, to avoid humanity. Their own humanity. To control the field means to avoid the pain of abject uncertainty. But dear friends, this is rather unfortunate. A misinterpretation of the beauty of life, of the flow of life. That cannot be controlled or owned. It is not a saddled stallion. But an unsaddled stallion! Power travels through lineage. in spiritual realms, power-seeking hides. Wanting to be the “healer,” the “guru,” the “seer.” They will act as healer carrying a silouette, cloaked in potency. We have discussed already this is an even trickier mask, as this is also where the truest power resides, and where the most vulnerable seek help and guidance. Why is it that so many priests, have committed child molestation. Some of the cruelest shadows lurk where they can hide - not only under the authority of money - but of morality, ‘goodness’ and ‘light’ also. Under ‘GOD’ under, ‘LOVE’. Under ‘EVOLUTION OF THE SOUL’. ‘GROWTH’. Underneath is the same motivation. A cling to power. The body in a state of fear, no matter how much the mind tells it, it is not, the body holds the score as they say. No matter how subtle, it is the same laden insecurity looking to hold sway and self above others. Another paradox - of course - Sometimes what begins as egoic power-seeking is really a distorted echo of the soul’s true call to step into presence, mastery, and integrity.

But this draw to power, is part of the anima, part of the untranscended state. The alchemisation of this to real devotion, is transcendence. But before this, it is an animal in a human body, looking to dominate, like an ape, but more gross than an ape since the human has this psyche, that seems to know moreso when it is cruel.

Only humans kill from fear of loss, from ideology, from insecurity dressed as power.

Power stays in the shadows since it is part of the untranscended, unaware egoism. The animas, the child’s, the ego’s sense of inadequacy and its drive towards dominance. It wants to sit on the top of a stack of jenga !!

Children in play seek power, material or spiritual, it matters not - it is the same structure with different language, different forms - but beneath it is the same. The same child, still on stabilisers not knowing of itself or who it is. Searching for that hierarchy. The illusion of topness, and betterness. The real hierarchy is an inverse ion, and it is so subtle, so that many / or most / miss it / and it is the paradox itself for the true power is void of power, is void of identity, is silence and the emptiness of itself. So those seeking power will never understand it, for it is the antithesis of what they are seeking. The real power, is silent, is too tender, too revealing. Too bare. Too real. Too human.

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The difference between judgement and discernment.

Opinions are dead things. Judgement comes from the mind. Judgement assumes a hierarchy. And yet discernment is very different. Discernment arises from awareness not from the mind, not from the division. Awareness is the clarity that arises, that cuts through mistruth - that sees through pretence. It is about seeing what is, it is seeing the act, without labelling and discontinuing the performance. That is discernment in the realm of truth. Discernment is awakeness / alertness. There is not attachment to the perspective it arises from silence. From clarity. Not from the mind. It is only from silence that true knowledge can come. When one is free from its own reaction, and in stillness can see what is true what is false, not to judge but to discern. To see who uses the name of truth, in vain, for its vanity, instead of in its inherent honesty. When one claims something it does not know it is a lie, a lie is the opposite of truth - that is funnily enough. Claiming to know where one is, is to be honest. And to be honest it to be present with what exists now. 

Presence is not always silent, it is not always happy, joyous or perfect. There might exist an inner acceptance, but presence can be many things. Presence is what is existing now. It is grief, perhaps it is love, pain. Presence has many forms, presence is the energy of healing. It is the movement of life forward in its continual process of evolution. Moving and standing still. It is the total, it is awareness now. But it is not always pretty. It is real. It is sound. It is here. It is the souls progression. Presence does not pretend. It rests where it is. That is reality. Not pretend. Not superficial. Not dry. It’s not one shade or colour. Presence is tearful, if it must be. Heavy if it must be. Reality as it is, not what it pretends to be. 

Moving away from pretence, is a must as the soul evolves. And the acts become more and more subtle. Once you’ve waded past the material, the grosser ignorance, then must you take to the subtle ignorances, the spiritual graves, and stalks out of water. To remain somewhere one does not belong is to stagnate. We are notes, strings in an orchestra, there is harmony there is disharmony there is dissonance. To surround oneself with old mirrors is to remain in a kiddy pool. It is not to judge but to discern, and to see where the soul belongs. The paradox; to the essence there is not separation - but we are human - more intimately if indeed it becomes that way - we relate not to all. We are not blank slates. We are complex and dimensional. We are roused and turned off, we are human and anima. We do not avoid the anima but make it light, and thus through awareness all becomes divine. 

soul 

So what of this thing the soul? 

Is there specialty? Is There uniqueness?

So there is this thing the body. Then there is this thing the soul, beyond the body (but within the body) then there is this thing the self, which is the same essence in all things. All are interconnected, but with some distinctiveness. Some quality of unity and separation. 

Is the soul made up? 

In part it exists, in part it does not. Since if one is within the self, within the present, of the self, one need not hold onto the idea of soul, one will be enacting the souls means naturally. And yet, still that present, is the enactment of the soul. But if the soul identity becomes another identity for the mind to cling onto it becomes just that another identity and another barrier to the true self. 

In many yogic and Buddhist traditions, the elimination of the ego is essential, they diminish the ego as something to be gotten rid of. yet in embodiment, matter contains this element of specialty. That accounts for the uniqueness of the being. That perhaps it is not totally In equilibrium. That there is soul evolution and soul mapping, and indeed a separation more true than just the slap sticker EGO, there is music there is alignment there is quality of soul. There are certain characteristics to one’s being, as there are characteristics to one’s fingerprint. Each item in form contains a different filter. We are like cheese-graters, all filtering consciousness through us in different ways. Sometimes the filter is pure, at others times muddy. And yet it is all part of this infamous whole. When they say everybody is already enlightened, this is what they mean. True existence is already existing, but ones filter just needs to allow the flexibility for that water to pass through. 

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yet, even, the experience of the soul, the light of that path, one that holds the feeling of destiny, that contains meaning, is also self-made and an experience of the mind… Maybe an experience of a mind beyond, a connected mind and yet it is still within the experience of the mind. Within the experience of life, it is truthful, it has this feeling of truthfulness, and yet even that is a story. This story does not need maintaining within the totality of presence. The mind changes based on pleasure-pain experiences. Destiny is one of these. Synchronicity is also this. Closer alignment to the material order, but at a time this also stops. Since energy fluctuates and at a point energy stops. It is a part of the whole but it is not the whole itself. The mind stops. Meaning therefore stops. Beyond this there is no hierarchy even spiritually, life is just life, in its total equilibrium. From no life comes life. 

The soul is a note in a vast symphony, we can imagine it like this, like music, each individual makes up the whole, each instrument is tuned differently. One can remain in a singularity, but one can also become the wind that floats and is passed through all instruments. where does one place their attention, that is where the air will flow. Now see consciousness / awareness, it is not something static, and how we access it is not static since form is constantly in flux. this idea that it is one thing and nothing else does not take into account the complexity of the web of existence. We are woven, woven into the rug of life, each with a different thread. So in part yes, we are unique, and yet, since we are so interwoven, we are not unique at all and are completely insignificant. Our specialty is only so special, as it relates to the whole. Since the true soul, is connected to the soul that exists within all things. 

subtlety; consciousness is like a fork of fine strings and fine things 

What actually is presence? What is consciousness, what is the experience of reality, when one experiences ‘presence’? 

Presence holds within it many aspects, one can experience many kinds of present, the present is always different, there is an aliveness to real presence, a kind of stillness a continuity and yet a total eternity within every minute. 

Where life’s layers unravel themselves, it is not always, simple. At times the nature of presence is at a kind of distance, with the world of form, well yes there is so much in the projection, so much existing in the projection. The nature of subtlety has a certain complexity. Like seeing through a scope of transparency when all are seeing through telescopes of black and purple bruises. a witnesser rather than experiencer. Access to a reality so subtle, it falls outside the scope of most. The voice of self narrative is smaller, the other is accounted for, the outer reality, and yet perception is totally within. You might speak the same language and yet one is worlds apart. how does one account for the separative unity. Subtlety is the fine ringing in every movement. the depth of the layer. of one’s experience. The present extrapolates, many things, it is expressive, still and moving, emotive, though it is not reactive, the feeling of life is apparent, and in every hour, something else becomes of itself, since that is the nature of subtlety, it is not sameness. The continuity is the witness, but the experiencer is within its experience, sensitive to its environment. All things create a response. Everything that touches the lips has a reaction. every ounce of life, is part of the hand, the nail a part of the whole. To be present is not always to be perfect, presence is real, sensitive to its own feelings. Its feelings of expectation, its feeling of hunger, of drive, awareness the catalyst for transformation, and the present is this in manifestation. the present is vast, it can be active, it can be still, it can be expressive it can be quiet. there is not so much condition to the present, it expresses itself in many ways, in many forms. all form is a manifestation of the total present. 

The observer is still, always the same, but the being is fluctuating as form is in constant fluctuation. So the present is simultaneously continuous and yet totally different.  

The ego’s essentiality in the world of form 

The ego is; a false parade, a market for the many, thriving on people’s perceptions and experiences of it. Without interaction, without engagement, the ego cannot exist. It thrives on friction, on struggle, it is controlling, defensive, absorbed in its own reality. It is fearful, for the mask might slip and it has to be careful. The ego will use any motive to implore its own interpretation. The ego is that square window. The spiritual ego is the worst, since it hides behind robes of light, that is its hypocrisy. The ego clings to its clothes, its character. It is stuck and rigid and for safety requires an act, and imposes acting upon other., the ego is a sort of distortion. It always has a story, always has a narrative about itself. it is boring actually. it is in the past or in the future. deliberating on itself. A little manipulator! Cardboard box. 

The ego is a kid! a child running around in it’s own projection. It is really an. ugly thing. 

oop and yet, on the otherside.. 

everything is ego! 

Why are we trying to kill the kid? 

The ego is rather demonised in many form of spiritual thought,

though, what some forget, is that it is essential to this material existence. the spiritual world has it’s own conditionings, its own pretences, it implores an act at times of humility, perhaps the self is more certain than this, perhaps the self is more selfish than this. humility is a wonderful act, just as, love can be an act, anything that assumes a role. becomes absorbed and attached to a role, is the ego, is the act of the ego. ‘i am - this….’ 

An inspirer, once said; ‘the ego is the seed’; a child to be nurtured. To be fed and returned to the earth. It holds within it the very essence of the soul, it is indeed important and it is not to be disregarded, it is to be cared for. It is part of the whole. The feminine. The earth. Which for much time, is an aspect in all realms we have disregarded. 

Everything in this world is ego! ego is matter. Ego is the structure of form. until the form dies, one always has an ego, to varying degrees, but it always exists. separation is part of the whole. without ego; human, would not have it’s individuation, and thus the ability to transcend. It is part and parcel of the human, that we have this division, yes apart from nature, it is an essential part of our structure, and ability to realise god, to know that ultimate. 

You cannot avoid it, really you cannot avoid it, you can just be clear about it. Aware of it. this boundary, is perhaps, essential in a world of form, perhaps it is essential - without it one would drift readily into the other, and in a field of polarity, this boundary reveals the dark from the light . Though at the essence, of its structure all separation dissipates, it is very difficult to exist in the realm of form in this way. one might ask what is problem with this if all is whole? well yes, but we are human, and there exists duality. ahha the bitterness of duality. One in some cases must be discerning, or just throw your self to the wind, see, how ready are you to take on life’s deeper waters. to Be able to hold form, a sense of itself, when met with the world that does not comprehend anything but that, but the form, but the small window. one must acquire, or may choose not to, but generally one must act, assume the role! the ego loves the stage, assume the position! welcome to the stage! in order to live sometimes you must act. Most cannot, will not comprehend the formless. Keep harmony, assume a role:) that is one way, that is one of the many ways. 

Things the ego doesn’t like - the human reality 

The human mind will do anything but accept being human. It will cling onto ideas, of perfection, of a reality of something that it wants to be, denying the actual reality of what it is. The human being is very sensitive. Enlightenment, is nothing but this, the realisation of one’s total humanity, the deepest acceptance of this, and seeing that this is the deepest beauty that one can come to understand in this life. It is no longer in hiding from itself. 

These things like jealousy anger, fear, anxiety, desire they are only deemed bad by the human ego, by the human mind that rejects itself. All of these things can be expressed divinely, which just means with awareness. “Ooh” one might say, “I am experiencing anger, the body is experiencing anger”. Awareness becomes the separation, there is this quality existing, ah but I see it is not me, just the body. We cannot avoid the body. It is good to look after it, the body can get itself into all sorts of trouble. 

awareness makes no such judgement of the human. Only the human mind tries to deny the existence of these emotions. Tries to deny being human. When seen through the eternal principle, awareness, makes all expression of the human beautiful. Makes all things covered light, reveals the naturalness of these expressions. There is nothing wrong with the human experience. There is nothing wrong with anger, it is how it is perceived, how it is related to, how it is expressed. what is less true, is the suppression of such emotions, is the suppression of true feeling, for ideas. Again this was the problem with doctrinal religion. You follow scripture - you do not adhere to the present man reality. It is a misinterpretation of truth. Now in many of the spiritual schools of thought like these religions, cling to the perfect form, one in which can be achieved, but is not the essential point of this existence. people have attempted to interpret ‘truth’ through religion, through dichotomies, through the mind, for centuries. It has thrown countless people into dire straights, off of projections that come from the human psyche’s pre-disposition to ‘know’, to ‘own’, to ‘control’. To ‘know’ the path of another, whether that is through scripture or human design. A truth in fact they do not actually know. A great quote of jesus’s - ‘the scripture is dead’ - all forms of information born of other and of past are limitations they are not presence itself which is the only true source, the same eternal quality existing in all and partially unique as it filters through form. 

Truly it is just awareness, it is just the observer manifested in one’s reality. If one goes into the body and comes out with specificity, like stomach is angry, womb wants to bleed, there is comprehensive clarity and awareness has found itself into the body. This enough. Just to be aware. If one goes into the body and comes out with an interpretation, or something not even about their own body, one is not truly going into their body with clarity, they are going into the mind to search for an answer, which is just a projection. Clarity, awareness, is specific. 

The only thing that perceives of anything so deep and heavy, is a heavy soul caught in its own weight. Nothing is so deep and horrible. With light, that is awareness. The light is awareness.

what is freedom when there is no other? 

Does freedom just brood into fruition, when in contact with another relative truth? Is this thing freedom totally relative? If there is no separation what becomes of one’s longing to be free? Are there eternal qualities of true freedom? Is the truth, of the truth, the truth they all talk about, all the same? Or does freedom have its levels. Is freedom ultimately subjective, or is there a kind of freedom that is consistent? what is the difference between one’s truth and the truth? 

While many hold within a sense of their own freedom. for instance the hippies feel free because they can move across land, and are not bound to social structures, that’s one kind of self-perceived freedom. Same with those that feel money is freedom, those that are in a sense of freedom since they are no longer bound by monetary restriction and poverty, and can do as they like. same for the artist, that breaks boundaries of social norms as a test to material freedom. as such, and therefore, freedom is relative and subjective, in this way. But there is one kind of freedom, that is the playground of the abyss beyond the mind. Now, how all access this is totally different, and yet there is a mutuality about what it is. it is the field in which that sameness of reality takes place. From this perspective, there is one true freedom, that is the freedom from the sense of identity, the freedom beyond the body, beyond The I. There are many other kinds of freedom absolutely. but in all others, freedom is absolutely relative because the mind is obscured and different within each. But only in the field beyond that I, can one meet another. Within this, there is this mutual understanding of individuation, and of connection, a simultaneous meeting on the same ground of being. A kind of humility to that which is beyond. Freedom of the self. Freedom is presence itself, presence itself, what presence actually means is that transcendent quality of the divine that moves the being beyond the framework of the separation. This exists regardless of the other, though indeed what use is there of that freedom if with another it cannot play there? if it cannot be mirrored, since are we not also just human? But since that freedom is also the ground of reality and the ground of being itself. It is not competitive, it cannot be. All is what it is, is what is inherently existing. that freedom can exist independently, since it is an isolated aloneness and relationship to the self, and all that is. so you can battle about freedom, you can test it, but true freedom exists anyway, it is not something that needs testing, it is not something that compares itself, since it is the same in all. we are only human. presence is the freedom that holds all freedoms. all freedoms are held within the true freedom, that cannot hold onto itself as free as such, since it is just existence itself. ^x^ 

The deepest perspective is total equality on the ground of awareness. 

True clarity holds no hierarchy. 

Mutual respect for other. paradox is; life is not always this simple. We are human. Yet the equality of the witness, is one of the truest grounds to be, to exist in. It does not deny difference, nor collapse distinction into sameness. Rather, it sees through the theatre of superiority and inferiority, of light and dark, of power and weakness. It sees each mask as valid, yet none as ultimate. Mask as an inherent part of existence, since form itself is a mask. The witness holds the gaze steady, not to elevate or diminish, but to remain — receptive, clear, and without demand. This kind of equality is not performative. It doesn’t reach for niceness, or politeness, or approval. It is before all that. It allows each to be as they are — broken, radiant, confused, silent without flinching. It is alive. It knows that to see the other clearly is to honour the sacredness of life without condition.